I Think I See How This Works Now

This food-body connection is really a retraining of the head. Even more than losing weight, I really wanted to learn how to keep it off!  That is the big challenge… I’m sure I’ve lost a million pounds in my lifetime, and have gained a million two hundred pounds. 😩.

Well, for the past six plus months I have held steady… that is an accomplishment for me.  I’ve tried to wean myself off of daily weighing and from putting every morsel on a digital scale and logging into My Fitness Pal. I want my brain to KNOW when enough food is enough… and I want to be in control enough to STOP EATING ON TIME. Easier said than done.

However, In the past 6 months something has worked.  I’ve had times when I did overeat and times when I did under-eat. Somehow it balanced out. I’d be up 2 pounds one day, then down 3 pounds a couple days later. I always remained within a 3 pound window plus or minus.  I’m ok with that.  It seems my body is happy at my current weight.  So I don’t fight it. I did start another exercise program that I will blog about in a future blog.

Anyway, I had some mighty wonderful meals over the past month. One of them was this:

Barbecue Nachos

Barbecue Chicken Nachos from Cue Barbecue.  This was one of the most delicious things I’d had in two years. Great day!  This is definitely going on the treat-list.

Then, during a week of meetings for work I tried something that I swore I’d  ever eat – guess I was feeling adventuresome.  Yeah, I tried it:  Hot Chili Alligator from Henry’s Louisiana Grill …. it was good too; not fishy, not spongy, didn’t taste like chicken, didn’t taste like fish… tasted like…. alligator.🐊  I’m sure it being fried helped 👍🏽

Alligator

Unfortunately, Henry’s was only 1 of several restaurant meals that week. By Friday, I literally didn’t want to eat anything and pretty much didn’t.

On Monday I ate lay out 1000 calories all day which included four types of vegetables (collard greens, turnip greens, cabbage, and rutabaga) and a lot of water, lemon water and tea.

Collard greens

(Aren’t they beautiful?) 😊… were delicious too!

Feeling better already. It’s crazy how my diet during that week made me feel so sluggish.

Anyway, all this to say, I think I see how this works.  There is no getting ON a diet and getting OFF a diet for me.  There is only food awareness and balance; knowing what’s going in my mouth and knowing when to stop. 🛑   Dang! Took me 50 years to learn that. 😒. Better late than never. ✌🏽

Love y’all. 🌺

 

A Package From Lolli

Yesterday I received a package in the mail. That’s not unusual though.  I sat it on the bench next to the front door … and left it there.  That is unusual.

Eight days ago I called Linda (known to her family and close friends as Lolli, or Lol) because she was my go-to for essential oils and things related. We discussed Thieves(R) and whether ingesting them or not was what I should do as I was feeling a cold or something starting. A6E3EE12-8801-486D-A932-A976FE8E952CShe suggested I try the Thieves Lozenges.  I told her I wanted to try them.  Our last messages to each other that day said she was sending the Lozenges by USPS, that Thieves Lozenges was the best and I should receive them in 3 to 5 days.

The next morning I received a call from Lol’s sister, Sandra, saying,… “Lolli died.”   I can still replay the scene of me trying to process the words I just heard through all my tears.  So unexpected.

Today is a week later. I am still reeling.  It has taken me this long to even write about it. Sandra, Lolli, Angela (Sandra’s daughter/my li’l sis) and me; we formed sort of a family unit about 25 years ago when I lived with Sandra and Angela for four years. And like family we had some rough spots but we also had some the most fun, memorable times and greatest laughs ever!  I can hear Lol’s laugh right now as I am writing this. Everyone loved Lol.

So, when my package arrived yesterday, my cough-and-cold ridden body wanted to tear into it and pop some Lozenges, but I didn’t.  Somehow, now I want to keep these Lozenges forever. I am sure I will have to place another order with someone in order to try them.

I’ve spent the last week thinking a lot about life, and how quickly it can be gone. I do know Lol loved Jesus which brings great comfort, but I can’t help feel sadness for all of us who will know longer hear her infectious laugh. I am so grateful for that last conversation we had. I am so grateful for the time spent last summer hanging out with Sandra, Lol and Angela. Precious, precious moments.

I’ve had many friends and family lose loved ones just since Christmas. Hard days for many people. Everyday someone loses someone.  I am going to do better this year. I am going to make a better effort to stay in touch with those near and dear to my heart… because you never know when that last conversation, will indeed, be the last. Go hug your loved ones.

Love and hugs to you guys! ❤️🤗